humpless hump day

I find it interesting, although admittedly I may be the only one who does, that I had an extraordinarily sensual day yesterday, without actually engaging in intercourse. I fell asleep so mentally sated, I am fairly certain I actually slept with a smile on my face.

First, I spent some quality time with one of my favorite chat buddies, we'll call him BF (because we spend our time together in a virtual Blanket Fort). After chatting for a bit and learning that I was home alone, he called me. His voice has this crazy-erotic effect on me. I don't fully understand why, it just does things for me. He calls occasionally and talks me through some elaborate fantasy scenario, and I tend to be able to lose myself fully in his voice and the imagery he creates. Yesterday, we walked a path of fantasy involving BF and I sharing some time with H. He paints a beautifully erotic picture with his words, and I actually reached climax just by retreating into the fantasy and allowing it to take over.

Shortly thereafter, H messaged me and wanted to know if I'd like him to come by on his lunch hour. Of course I wanted him to come by! Silly man. So, I decided to allow him to "catch me being naughty" when he walked in. This is not something I would have even considered doing not so long ago. But, he seemed to enjoy my new found confidence. We shared an amazingly passionate half an hour or so together, without actually making love. I can't remember when I have enjoyed being with him so much. Perhaps there is something to this being open and straightforward with your spouse?

Later that evening, I spent some time online with IL (so-named because he represents everything that my mind views as the Ideal Lover). Although we have yet to meet in person, IL has taught me so much about myself, and about acceptance. I took the initiative in this chat and, for only the second time in my life, (the first time was also with IL), I engaged in online sex where I was the aggressor, typing out my images and thoughts so that he might relax and enjoy the scenario. I found this to be both erotic and empowering. IL appeared to enjoy it thoroughly as well.

I am constantly amazed and enthralled at how satisfying and intoxicating life can be, once you begin pushing your own boundaries, throwing off inhibitions and just doing what feels good. I humbly bow down to each of you who have helped me to plant my feet firmly on this path of self discovery. You know who you are.